Teaching is Tough. And Yet…

I’ve only been a teacher for a few months but already this job has tested me and pushed me to my limits. I’ve seen worse days, but not much worse. But also I’ve had few days better than these.

Let’s be honest, kids are hard work. Especially when you’re partially responsible for their moral upbringing and trying to help them understand the wonder of God’s love when all they want to do is play agario or snapchat each other. (Oh, the joy of middle schoolers!)

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Lately, I’ve had some challenges. Some have been small; others, larger. Sometimes I have to pick my battles and sometimes it feels like I’m trying to quell a mountain of misbehavior. Sometimes though…sometimes everything goes right. My lesson is well executed and engaging, students are on-task or at least responsive to my behavior plan, and I would be proud to have an administrator stop by and witness the learning taking place. It’s in those moments that I remember why I became a teacher.

But it’s not just in those moments. And I need to remember that.

Other times, I’m reminded why I became a teacher when I have a one-on-one conversation with a student that I hope helps them see why certain behaviors are needed. Or I’m reminded when I’m grading a particularly excellent assignment where I can see the student really got it. When I see a struggling student succeed, when a bright but lazy student turns in an assignment that shows not just promise but effort, when I can laugh with my students…these are moments in which I love my job.

And I do. Despite all it throws at me, I love teaching. It’s my calling. If nothing else, I know it’s where I’m supposed to be right now. And until He says “move” I’m staying.

 

This is the first post in a series reflecting on my struggles and joys as a first year teacher. Click on the category “From the Messy Desk” to see more soon.

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Life: It’s Going…

I have been on less-than-intentional hiatus from this blog for much longer than I would have liked. I’ve considered blogging several times and even thought about starting a completely new blog for this new chapter in my life. But I’ve decided against it for the immediate future.

One reason is that I don’t want my blog to be “a teacher blog”. Or even “a Catholic teacher blog”. It’s not that I don’t like those kind of sites. In fact, I often browse them for lesson ideas and the occasional dose of humor. However, as a first-year teacher, school is what I eat, sleep, and breathe. So it’s nice to have a little corner of my life that’s not all about that. This corner can be just me, not teacher-me or post-grad-me or any other label.

The stress of inhaling nothing but lesson plans, powerpoints, quiz grades, parent emails, and school generally is what has finally driven me to write again. So…I guess you could appreciate my insanity. You’ve gotten this far in the post so I assume you’re at least vaguely interested in what I’m saying and you have the craziness of my life to thank for that.

It’s not that I don’t love my job. I do. Deep down.
I just don’t like every part of it.

Let me bring you up to speed. In May, I graduated. Since then I’ve been offered 2 jobs in 2 different states, took the one in my hometown, moved back in with my parents, crunched financial numbers until I realized that being a Catholic school teacher with a mountain of private school debt who lived on her own was impossible if I wanted to be out of debt before I’m 30, bought a car, volunteered at a conference, adjusted to my new life as a middle/high school Theology teacher, juggled classroom management and grading and lesson planning and everything else, took my car on a road trip to the alma mater and there visited with good friends.

If that wasn’t enough adult adventures, last week I was driving to work when another car failed to yield and drove right into me. My car is going to be totaled and my hatred of round-abouts has increased and been justified. In the wake of the accident I’ve had backache and a headache that wasn’t just from the accident (see: middle school teacher).

So, here I come back to this blog a single, broke catholic school teacher. But at least, I think, my sarcasm is intact. I shall be chronicling my adventures as a new teacher, an adult who is still learning how to be one, and (that seeming paradoxic) a Catholic young adult.

And why have I returned? Because I need an outlet and a break. Blogging, for me, has often been a way to process things. Especially now that I no longer live with my closest friends, I think it will be helpful.

And if not, I at least hope it will be amusing to read.

Here’s to a new Beginning.

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AMDG

My Life’s Work

Potter and ClaySo often the great scholars and artists speak of their “life’s work” (usually in movies when said work is going up in flames, but that’s beside the point). Yesterday I saw a billboard on the side of the road, an ad for a college. It was probably aimed at people older than the traditional college age and asked something to the effect of “have you found your life’s work?”

Well, because I’m easily sucked in I actually pondered this billboard. I have no plans to become a great scholar or scientist necessarily. I don’t think I’ll be devoting my life to researching a cure for cancer or fighting poverty. I realized, however, that my life’s work will be my students.

As a teacher, my kids will be the ones I stay up nights for, worry over, whose success I obsess about. They’ll be the thing that keeps me going, keeps me moving, and makes it all worth it in the end. (Somehow.) Their learning will be what I measure myself by. They will be the thing I would give up anything for.

I’ve been thinking the last few days about money. Stupid idea, I know. But student loans are scary. The company servicing my loans was kind enough to email me a snapshot of my current debt earlier this week. My mom and I were also discussing a young woman we know who recently graduated as a PA and will be making a considerable salary (more than a teacher’s I’ll tell you that!).

Here’s the thing. If I wanted to, I’m certainly smart enough to be a PA. I have the potential. I’m not belittling what they do, I’m just saying I didn’t pick education because it was an easy A (though yeah I wouldn’t call most of my ED classes thus far challenging). I chose education because I felt called to it.There’s a thousand other things I could do with my life. A thousand other majors. But I chose elementary education because I want to help children and because it’s where God called me.

I went on a rant recently along these same lines, saying how I hope my students appreciate it. And sure, it would be nice if I was appreciated. But what’s going to make it worth it in the end is to see my life’s work succeed. To see a third grader understand fractions or a second grader read “magnificent” or to see them walk across that stage at graduation and know I helped get them there.

My students are my life’s work. Classes will come and go but children will always hold a special place in my heart.

Whether I’m a teacher or a mom or an aunt I would be devoting myself to children. I believe today’s children are tomorrow’s Einsteins, Washingtons, and Austens. They deserve the chance to become the people they are meant to be. I want a hand in forming the artists, thinkers, and world-shakers of the next generation, for the better.

So no, I won’t be making 6 figures and making big changes on the global stage. But maybe my students will.

NOTE: I wrote this post over 2 weeks ago but never got around to publishing it. It speaks to my thoughts at the time and in my firm belief that teaching and/or children are meant to be the focus of my life. Upon rereading this tonight, however, I realize you could replace “my students” with “my kids”. (But that will depend on where God leads me of course.)

7 Quick Takes (Vol. 41) Struggs, a Rant, the End of the Semester, and Maybe I’ll Miss School

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It’s been a while since I did a Quick Takes Post…or much blogging at all for that matter. Frankly, I’ve been lacking motivation for a lot of things lately. Including class. No, I didn’t skip. But I wanted to…oh, how I wanted to.

For an overview of my life lately see 25 Signs You’re So Over This Semester. It’s freaky accurate. No I haven’t resorted to dry shampoo or completely stopped taking notes. But microwave food? Yep. No desire to clean? Check. Massive procrastination? This blog post is evidence of that I think.

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This semester could end today and that would be totally ok. I’ll take my grades as is and leave for the Summer. Give me some time to recharge and I’ll be back in August. But please let it end. I’ve came to a breaking point this week. After staying up until 5am watching the double canonization on Saturday I stayed up until 2:30 on Monday night writing a paper. I managed to drag myself out of bed in time for 10:50am Spanish test yesterday. But promptly took a nap that afternoon. This has been…a struggs week. A massively struggs week. If you don’t know (i.e. aren’t from kansas or the surrounding area) struggs means struggles, struggling. It’s a word I’ve adopted since coming to school here, mostly because it perfectly summarizes the feelings of despair, frustration, and problems in one syllable. So yes, this week has been struggs. It’s also been crazy. I’m pretty sure every one of my suitemates is done with this semester, some more than me. There have been interesting conversations at 12:30 at night and more than one evening of Walmart adventure this week.

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Moving on to Summer…after a week at home I’ll be working with the Little Sister of the Poor. I’m getting really excited and started looking up things to do in the city I’ll be in. I know it’s going to be great! And great for me. For the record, though, I’m pretty sure that life is not what I’m called to. Don’t worry, I’ve thought about it. A lot.

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A funny thing happened today. So, to completely switch gears, I had my Spanish Oral exam today. After my professor commented on my knack for the language and said she hoped I would take more Spanish. Then, as I was leaving her office, I ran into my history professor. He randomly asked me (first thing out of his mouth) what my major was. I told him education. He went on to say “because you’re really good at history” and asked if I had considered a minor.
*sigh*
If only there were enough credits in a semester…Actually, if money was no object I would gladly stay in school an extra year, or maybe even two. I’d also study abroad. The fact is though, that I have to be realistic. (Though I might just check what would happen if I did switch my major.)

I just hope that years from now my future students will realize that I could have majored in many things but chose to serve them and educate them on not only reading and math but also on how to be proper humans beings. I hope they’ll recognize that what I chose to dedicate my life to was them and their education. I hope they see that with my gifts an abilities I tried to make our education system better for them and children throughout the country.

*end of rant*

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My professors are also part of the reason I love this school so much. After my Spanish oral exam I stayed and chatted with my professor for a moment. She has proved to be one of my favorite teachers. In fact, Spanish class is one of the bright spots of my day. She’s great, my classmates are great, and the subject is one I like. I didn’t like this professor at first, but she has really grown on me. I find that there’s a few teachers like that. In the end, I value the lessons they taught me (and I don’t mean the subject) and come to appreciate them.

I can only hope I’m as good a teacher someday.

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Speaking of this school…our dean wrote a blog post about her experience and how the community here has helped her as she deals with a trauma in the family. The community. That’s probably takes second place only to the faith life on my list of things I love about my school.

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So…what started out as an “I’m so done with this semester” whine-fest turned into “I really do love this school”. Welp, that’s college for you!

Linking up with Jen at Conversion Diary! Go check out the other posts in the link up!

7 Quick Takes (Vol. 39) The Travel Bug, Reading, and an Unproductive Spring Break

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Spring Break has not been productive, at least not as productive as I was hoping. I’ve done pretty much no homework. Honestly, school seems like a dream. Tonight and tomorrow though, I will have to do some work before I head back on Sunday. But I really don’t have any motivation to do so. I did however, observe in a school yesterday morning. First grade. It was great. It reminded me why I want to be a teacher. Past all the red tape, and the political correctness, and all my notions, there’s teaching. That’s why I chose this major and this career: to help children.

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Am I an introvert? I think I’ve come to the conclusion that I need quiet time. And by that I mean time for my mind to be quiet–no computer shining in my eyes, no worries pressing on me. Just me and something simple (prayer, doing dishes). There comes a point when I’m sick of all the noise. And I just want to get away from it and recharge. But does that make me an introvert? Or just an extrovert who like, everyone, need quiet time? Maybe I’m just somewhere in between. Regardless of how I label it though, I appreciate that I’ve done at least one thing productive this week and made this realization. It’s important for me to recharge and how I do that is in the quiet.

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That being said, the travel bug is back. I have an adventurous streak which I’m just learning to recognize. Particularly, I want to travel. I have for years. When I realized I couldn’t study abroad I thought I’d set that dream aside for now or at least put it in the back of my mind. But then I was reminded why I want to go recently, and so yeah, it’s back, or I guess it never went away. I realize that I won’t be going abroad any time soon, but someday I hope to.

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The fact that I liked the King and I at age 12 should have given me a hint about a lot of things actually. The movie was one I enjoyed when I was younger. It was one of my first experiences with musicals. I found a cassette (yes a cassette) of the soundtrack first and listened to it on repeat. It maybe wasn’t my favorite, but I liked it. The themes that connect to my own life I noticed later. First, there’s the travel and adventure part of it: a proper English woman moves to a foreign country where she knows no one to start a new chapter in her life. Sound like an adventurous streak? Then there’s the fact that she’s a teacher. Because, well, I’m going to be a teacher, she was a teacher. Also, Anna loved her students. That’s why she stayed (twice!), because she loved those kids. Last, Anna, though a softy, was also a woman with determination or perhaps stubbornness. That another thing I can see in myself.

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Lent! It’s been almost 10 days since Ash Wednesday. I’ve broken at least one of my lenten resolutions so far, maybe two. And the third is one I would have to set out to break. I have been home for most of Lent though. My days flow differently at home. We’ll see what happens when I get back to school next week.

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Pope Francis was elected a year ago yesterday. Where was I a year ago? Check out my admittedly enthusiastic post from that day. It’s cool to have a blog to look back on my thoughts and feelings and memories. Sitting in that auditorium my whole body was filled with adrenaline. It was a definitely an exciting day. I also wrote a post the other day about my thoughts on what Pope Francis has done in just one year.

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Reading. I finished Insurgent yesterday. And of course, it ended on a cliffhanger. I’ve got a number of things on my reading list beside Allegiant too. I came by a copy of Four Signs of the Dynamic Catholic the other day. And I have Jane Austen’s Northanger Abbey to reread. I could also borrow a copy of Tale of Two Cities from my mom’s library to reread. Still, I kind of want to read something new and exciting. I may add all these great books on Christianity and life alongside the classics on my list of books I want to read. But in the end I have a soft spot for the popular, contemporary, dystopian, fight-the-evil-government YA books. At least right now. …said the English literature minor. 😛

As always, I’ll be back next friday with more quick takes!

For more Quick Takes, visit Jen at Conversion Diary and check out the link-up!

In Which I Prove I’m a Teaching Nerd through Educational Songs

So, as a future teacher I’m kind of obsessed with educational songs and parodies. Today, when I was supposed to be reading history I decided to see if there were any songs about the enlightenment on youtube. Yep, my procrastination skills are beast. I’m also an education nerd. I have a Youtube playlist just for education songs.

Here’s a few. And you know what, they’re pretty awesome.

A parody of “It’s Too Late to Apologize” about the American Revolution (awesome!)

 

Tour the States

 

And the follow-up song Tour the World

 

A song consisting of phrases and words coined by Shakespeare

 

A Schoolhouse Rock song about the American Revolution

 

A song about Magellan from the Animaniacs (may not be entirely accurate perhaps–I don’t remember–but it sure is catchy!)

 

“Mr. Morton” a sweet song about subjects and predicates

 

This is my 6th post in the 7 Posts in 7 Days challenge hosted by Jen at Conversion Diary

7 Quick Takes (Vol. 35) About Teaching and Reading, oh, and Valentine’s Day

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Happy Valentines Day! Or if you prefer, Singles Awareness Day 😉 Today I read this article from catholicsistas.com about the single life called “The Dilemma and Joy of Being Single”. It was a really good piece. One of my favorite quotes was “if you are a single woman, you are able to mother everyone”. It’s so true. In a paradoxical way it makes me see what people mean when they say that being single is being free. The vocation of being a wife and mother requires a woman to devout herself to her family. It’s a beautiful vocation. A single woman, on the other hand can devout herself to others. But as the article reads “either vocation, married life or single/virginity, entails giving up something in order to be fruitful in some way”. That’s living your vocation. While I’m always looking ahead to my vocation in life I should also remember that

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So, I didn’t write my quick takes last week…in fact I haven’t blogged since the first. That’s terrible. Last week, though, was pretty crazy. I turned in my portfolio to the education department on Friday. It was a huge weight off my shoulders. I was working down to the last hour I could. Then it was done. I spent Saturday making muffins and reading and just relaxing after that craziness.

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I then had my interview on Monday. A teacher from the education department and another woman interviewed me. I think it went well. I’ve also been doing lesson planning lately for my classes. I really liked the first one I did. The second one I found the format annoying. But it’s exciting to be doing real teacher stuff! 🙂

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I read Divergent! That’s what I was reading last weekend. I finished it last night. It was pretty good. But mostly it just feels good to reeead! And to have finished a book. It makes me happy. I’m keeping right up with my #5 year-long goal and with one of my February goals. It makes me feel less busy and so good to have found time made time to read just for fun.

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I guess the reason why is JOY. It’s my new philosophy if you will. It’s a new way of living for me. A motto. I haven’t put it into a post of its own (yet!) but essentially JOY is about not letting little things get to me and stress me out. It’s keeping on top of things. It’s not being freaked out about stuff over which I have no control.

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Speaking of goals…I still need to redefine goal #4 of my year-long goals. I have some thoughts but I think I’ll put this into its own post and discuss more reasons for wanting to have some technology-free times. In general my goals aren’t doing too hot. But it’s only February. If I had everything checked off by now those would have been really lame goals. Speaking of which, my February goals are looking good, except for the whole write 10 blog posts thing. I need to step it up on that one.

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One more take about education. (Clearly teaching is on my mind.) Another article I read this week was about Common Core and how it devalues literature. It’s true. What happened to reading for reading’s sake? What happened to literature and books as art? Literature is good for the soul and the character. Have we forgotten that? I got a happy surprise at the end of the article when I discovered it was written by Anthony Esolen who will be coming to speak on campus on Monday.

As always, I’ll be back next friday with more quick takes!

For more Quick Takes, visit Jen at Conversion Diary and check out the link-up!

7 Quick Takes (Vol. 34)

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Life right now is a little crazy that is I mean, busy. (Joy. Joy. Must remember joy.) Today I turned in two papers for my portfolio for the Honors Program. Next week my application to the education department is due. It’s quite a project and one I’ll be working on all this weekend. I see a lot of sitting in my room, earbuds in, typing away, in my future the next few days. But even with all that I also realize that I need to be more consistent and scheduled with my blogging. Afterall, I’ve done little but Quick Takes recently. And I’d like to put out some longer posts about a particular topic.

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Applying to the education program is not as simple as it sounds…but I’m really excited. The process consists of a portfolio which includes 6 essays and it all has to be arranged a certain way. But if I am accepted into the program I will officially be an education major, one more step towards getting my degree. I’ve had some doubts lately about whether I want to major in education. But I realized that I love personally helping people. It gives me energy to see my work pay off in positive effects for those I’ve tried to help. I’m excited to teach. I’m excited to see that glint in a student’s eye when I help them make a realization or pique their curiosity. But…that’s still a while a way. And before that comes this portfolio.

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I’ve watched a few movies and TV recently. I’ve watched a lot of Once Upon a Time (almost caught up!) , saw Frozen (great movie, some small hitches; I hope to write a post about it soon…hopefully), and I watched Sherlock last Sunday. The Sign of Three was great! Probably my favorite episode thus far (we’ll see what happens on Sunday!) I never saw that surprise at the end coming either! So, I’m interested to see how that plays out in this next episode. 🙂

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Lately I’ve been realizing new things about my personality. Of course, when am I not? I’m always discovering new things about myself. Yesterday, I had a long conversation with our chaplain, partially pertaining to who I am. He’s observant and has a great gift for personalities. He shared some insights with me which opened my eyes.

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I want to travel. I’ve always wanted to travel. Just go look at all my posts tagged “studying abroad“. Over the summer I was trying to figure out how I could possibly be in my college’s Florence program until I finally realized that it wouldn’t be possible. But there may be other possibilities and in the span of an hour I had two separate conversations where travel/living abroad were topics. Maybe it’s in God’s plans. But we’ll have to see.

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I saw a baby today! Why is this not #1? Anyways, it was just for a few minutes but it made me realize (again) how much I miss having little kids in my life. My youngest sister turned 7 yesterday. I feel like it was yesterday that she turned 6. She’s getting big. By the time I graduate she’ll be 9. When I started college she was 5. That’s such a difference. I like little kids. Maybe someday I’ll be a kindergarten teacher, or first grade. 🙂

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God has also been challenging me lately. Sometimes I’m cynical or terse. I think I’m reacting against current situations and stress. This contrasts, of course, with my motto for the year: joy. I guess there’s always something to strive for.

 

As always, I’ll be back next friday with more quick takes!

For more Quick Takes, visit Jen at Conversion Diary and check out the link-up!

7 Quick Takes (Vol. 33) My Life This Week

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It has been a good week. To start it off right, Sunday was beautiful (not weather-wise of course). I went to Mass in the morning and worked with the new sacristan (my rooomate). Then in the evening I watched Sherlock. It was good. SPOILER: it wasn’t completely satisfying. But of course, that’s Steven Moffat for you.

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Several people I know were gone on the March this week. The buses from our college left Monday afternoon and got back late last night. It was different this year staying on campus and watching so many others go. The campus ministry office was practically empty. But I certainly wasn’t idle while they were gone. As part of my work with campus ministry I organized a 24 hour period of eucharistic adoration for people to pray for those on the march. Last night I wrote a short post on my thoughts about staying back and praying rather than going out and marching.

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I’ve also been very productive this last week. I’m probably going to break that streak this weekend, but it was nice while it lasted. 😉 I actually read for fun. I started Divergent by Veronica Roth, but I haven’t gotten far enough through it to give a well-informed review. But it was so good to read, to just curl up with a good fiction book. I’ve missed this, as I said before.

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This week I also finally got my work schedule which means I can make my weekly schedule up. I talked about this goal of setting up a weekly schedule in my goals. I don’t want to be too strict and structured though, because I’m realizing that I don’t neccesarilly need to. I’ve actually had a really good system so far this semester. At night, as I go to bed, I make a list of things I need to accomplish the next day. In the morning I put the list in my clutch with my phone and keys where I can refer to it all day and check things off as I do them, circle priorities, and add things as they arise.

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Today I observed in a public elementary school as part of my art and music methods class. I think was the first time I was ever in a public elemntary school class. It was interesting watching the interaction between the teacher and his students. It was little different than what I observed in the Catholic school last year. And in general, it gave me more positive feelings towards working in a public school. I still want to work in a Catholic school ideally. But if all I can find is a small public school…I think I would be fine.

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I’ve also realized that before college I’d never been in a traditional classroom. In preschool and kindergarten I went to a montesorri school. 1st-12th grade I was homeschooled. I had a couple online classes though, and co-op classes which were like traditional classes excpet they were taught by our parents and I was often in them with at least one sibling…so maybe not quite the same. So, despite my inexperience with traditional schooling I came into college wanting to be a teacher. Huh.

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Goals review. The month is winding to a close and I need to start thinking ahead to my first goals review of the year. I only had a few goals for January but I still realize I need to get on those and finish them up before the month comes to a close. So wish me luck with those!  And check back in next weekend for my review.

As always, I’ll be back next friday with more quick takes!

For more Quick Takes, visit Jen at Conversion Diary and check out the link-up!

7 Quick Takes (Vol. 31) Life and Random Philosophizing

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So yes, it is Saturday.  Which means, yes, I’m late. And yes, I’m breaking my own rule about limited technology/no social media on Saturdays. I wasn’t too good last week either. This is one resolution that probably needs to be re-examined. Yesterday I was out and busy and such. And I well, forgot to write my 7 Quick Takes post. Well, I remembered at one point in the afternoon but then swiftly forgot until I was in bed and it was past midnight.

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Shopping. That’s what I was doing yesterday. I finally got snow boots. I can now go outside without soaking and freezing my feet. It’s been especially bad since here at home there’s feet of snow. There was nothing like this in Kansas when I left.

I also went shopping on Thursday with a friend from high school. I got a few new tops and nothing I really needed. My budgeting goal isn’t going so hot either.

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Parenting/teaching styles. So, I’m kind of fascinated with parenting styles and tips despite the fact that I may or may not get married and the fact that my wedding might be years and years from now. Call it weird, call it some sort of complicated emotional unchastity. Or call it being prepared. Anyways, earlier this week I read this article about what American parents might be able to learn from parents in other countries. I don’t necessarily agree with everything in the article, but it piqued my interest and is worth a perusal.

It also linked me to an article about the ever-fascinating Finnish education system. …So yes, I am a teaching geek.

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I leave for school tomorrow! In 24 hours I’ll be on my way back to campus. Crazy to think about.  It’s been a nice time at home. But I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t excited to go back to school. I’ve had a nice visit at home, and I’ll be happy to be back at school, not because I don’t like home but because I like Benedictine too.

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What being an extrovert means to me. This week I saw a series of memes about what it’s like to be an extravert. Well, I didn’t agree with everything it said. And I consider myself an extrovert, or at least I can be an extrovert. But see I’m not the type who needs to always be partying and always needs to hang out and the one always initiating stuff. See, I like being around people. I like sharing my life and time with them. I like talking to them (I continually work on being a better listener). But I don’t like meeting new people necessarily. I’m a shy person. I’ve been calling myself a shy extrovert and that’s the best way I have of describing myself right now.

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Confronting my inner perfectionist this week. If you’ve been reading this week, you may have noticed my post “The Difference Between Trying and Doing“. And if you’re really good at reading into things you may have guessed, that the post was kind of my way of dealing with my own failures and my tendency to dwell on these negatives. I also had a few other ideas for posts that I realized related to my perfectionist side. So I guess this week was about exploring this issue and trying to challenge it.

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So…promise not to judge me? In addition to confronting my inner perfectionist this week. I realized that I have a fancy for songs about people’s darker natures. Namely:

Imagine Dragon’s “Demons”

and Kelly Clarkson’s “Dark Side”

You see, these songs aren’t just about how terrible humans can be. There about the fact that despite our flaws and our past and our failings we can be loved. People can love us–dark side and all. They can see our inner demons without running away in fear. In a way, these songs are hopeful.
Or am I just reading into things a little too much? I have been known to do that.

Anyways, that’s enough of my random philosophizing on the meaning of songs, parenting styles and my own personality. : P

Be back next Friday with more quick takes! 🙂

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